Lately my quiet time has helped me gather my thoughts about a lot of different things. I've learned a lot about myself and how I truly feel about things away from trying to have a tough exterior and the influence of friends.
I've found that as much as I had hoped time would help, I don't think I'll ever be able to be friends with my ex. It's not a fun realization because he was my best friend for 3 years. The lines are so blurred now between friend and girlfriend that I don't know how to go back. I don't know how to un-feel feelings for him. You can't teach an old dog new tricks y'all.
I have hope that we will be friendly when run in to each other, that we'll be adult enough to acknowledge each other and say hello. I also hope that I don't crumble into a million pieces when we do but that will come with time.
It's hard to stay hurt and mad at someone when you've had enough time to think about things and realize that it really is for the best. I doubt he reads this anymore but if there is some smidgen of a chance that he does, consider this me extending the olive branch.
"I've learned a lot broken down on the bedroom floor. I've really learned a lot. I hope you've found what you were looking for." -Amos Lee, Learned A Lot
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