I'm currently room mate-less and will soon be Blue House-less. Where will I waste hours upon hours of my time now? I am confidant I will find something to do instead of what I should be doing but it's still a depressing thought.
These past two days have kept me pretty busy even though I feel like I really didn't do much of anything. My Sex & The City class is keeping me occupied with reading and I work out for an hour but after that I don't know where the time goes. It is probably devoted to overanalyzing things that we talk about in class and things that I've been too busy to think about the last few weeks of school.
For example: all day today I cursed being socially constructed to value relationships with men more than anything else. When did this happen? Did it start with my first boyfriend, Louis, from pre-kindergarten? Doubtful. He always ruined my block houses so I never really liked him anyway. Why do we bitch and moan about the lack of love in our lives and feel that a night out was a failure if we didn't go home with someone, or at least get a phone number? There are many reasons for this that I won't go into because I don't want to bore anyone or start a controversy.
We talk about all the things we may not have in our lives as single girls: companionship, love, understanding, someone to share things with. But aren't we missing the big picture? Who are these women who listen to all the things we say we lack? Aren't they our friends who offer companionship, love, understanding and sharing? When did our female friendships become secondary to relationships with men? What happened to the days of Girl Power and boys with cooties?
I have been very guilty of not seeing the big picture lately. I've thought about all the things I miss having in a relationship but when it really comes down to it, it's not anything that my friends can't offer me. (Of course, with the exception of a few unmentionables...)
Shit. Now I forgot what I was talking about. Here's a good place for me to stop rambling. To sum it up, I will say cherish your friendships and don't discount their value. "Friends" just came on my TV... It's a sign!
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